It's very odd, for the longest time I thought that I was self motivated but now after a year and a half away from my family & friends I find it hard to step things up. I guess it's time to start doing it for my own reasons as opposed to trying to live up to the expectations of those I care for. If the source of my advancement is an outside influence that I can't control or at least guide, be it family, friends, the quest for social godhood or one of countless thousands of things, then I put my progress in the the hands of others, and if the source of my strengths are those same things then solitude is my Kryptonite and these thing cannot be a